I AM..... Jardoism

<been bumping this one for three days straight drinking wine> I hope yall got the deluxe edition of Beyonce's new cd. cuz you didnt then you are really missing out! This song is so relevent right now. OMG i wish you could understand!

Now, now, now, honey
You better sit down and look around
Cause you must've bumped yo' head
And I love you enough to talk some sense back into you, baby
I'd hate to see you come home, me the kids
And the dog is gone
Check my credentials...
I give you everything you want everything you need
Even your friends say I'm a good woman
All I need to know is why?

Why don't you love me?
Tell me, baby, why don't you love me
When I make me so damn easy to love?
And why don't you need me?
Tell me, baby, why don't you need me
When I make me so damn easy to need?

I got beauty, I got class
I got style, and I got ass
And you don't even care to care
Looka here
I even put money in the bank account
Don't have to ask no one to help me out
You don't even notice that

Why don't you love me?
Tell me, baby, why don't you love me
When I make me so damn easy to love?
Why don't you need me?
Tell me, baby, why don't you need me
When I make me so damn easy to need?

I got beauty, I got heart
Keep my head in them books, I'm sharp
But you don't care to know I'm smart
Now, now now now now now now
I got moves in your bedroom
Keep you happy with the nasty things I do
But you don't seem to be in tune
Ooh.....

Why don't you love me?
Tell me, baby, why don't you love me
When I make me so damn easy to love?
Why don't you need me?
Tell me, baby, why don't you need me
When I make me so damn easy to need?

There's nothing not to love about me
No, no, there's nothing not to love about me
I'm lovely
There's nothing not to need about me
No, no, there's nothing not to need about me
Maybe you're just not the one
Or maybe you're just plain....... DUMB

Real update coming soon boos!

This is how i feel right now

<Im sad>

Im your only friend

Im not your only friend

But im a little

Glowing friend

But really

Im not actually

Your friend

But I am

Blue Canary in the ally by the lightswitch

Who watches over you!

Make a little birdhouse house in your soul….

Not to put to fine a point on it

Say, “I’m the only bee in your bonnet!”

Make a little birdhouse in your soul!

<I miss him> I want to talk to tiger

Bye boos... real update coming soon

always the shoulder.... never the tear

i really want to cry right now..... me and tiger is over.... omg i really want to throw up and talk to someone about.... i have no friends and i just no realized this.... as im going through the most horible time in my life.... no shoulder to cry on

<jardo>

I cant eat and im not sleepy.... now lets dance!!

SOOOO it is 4:25 in the morning. The last thing i ate was a chicken sandwich and that was on Monday. I actually heated some noodles but the smell made me sick to my stomach. So now i have a hunger headache and i feel some type of way. Ive been listening to that new T Pain song about him buying me a drink and making some new 8 counts. OMG I have two papers that i need to work on well really three. Uggg i hate school. ugg ugg ugg

<I am so GOT DANG mad!> I could kill right now and have NO remorse! ok i cant really tell you what happened but what would you do if some person THAT YOU DONT APPROVE OF at all for *various reasons* was all over your sister and touched her no no place ? I really dont like this guy no more. i mean i really want him to just get leprocy and die. I know that sounds mean but thats really how i think. Stop messing with my sister you buttmunchers!

<Boo Love>So i havent seen the artist formally known as Tiger at all since we last spoke. But whatev... Sigh i cant really feel some type of way... i guess ill just be alone forever... i guess. and you know what? that wont be so bad just you know... lonely:(

<Alcohol> Ever since my birthday i have been drinking almost everytime i have gone out to a restaurant. I REFUSE to drink at like house partys and stuff. NOPE I need a bartender with a licence and a blender!! But for real tho why didnt know one tell me that drinking was so much fun? Its just that i just figured out that i cant drink in front of everybody cuz apparently it is national news when alcohol touches my lips and everybody at school has to know. OMG i was feeling some EXTRA type of way a few weeks when i went to TGI fridays and i got a drink. Why come that monday like 7 people came up to me and was like "I heard you had a drink and went to the hookah bar. Ohhhhh" So wow. i just cant drink in front of people... oh well drinks are expensive anyways.

<The carcinogen bar> Please dont see that i went to that place and now im a smoker. I was dragged there and i didnt smoke AT ALL! I literally sat there with my shirt over my mouth because i felt some type of way just by being there. but i stayed cuz i love my friends so dang much. but oh if it wasnt them i would of left with a quickness!

<Summa summa summa time> I dont know what im gonna do this summer. I need to go to summer but i also want to do this Dreamworks internship. So if Dreamworks comes through with this internship then im going to California. Im so dang excited... but i sent them my stuff last week and i havent heard nothing from them yet so i proballay didnt make it:( oh well

Ok that was an update. I be wanted to come on here and type some stuff... but i dont care. Ill try to come back soon! I do love ya Xanga!! Maybe if i got some random comments from some of the RANDOM people that come on my site i would be motivated to update more...... sooooo can i get a comment please?

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